So...

People keep asking me to update my blog and I swear I've started this post a million times and just keep closing out of it. I guess I have a lot to say but feel like maybe it's not my place or that hey, maybe no one really cares haha but you all keep asking so here goes.

So the basics are that I got another job. I'm still working for the catering company but I am also now nannying, once again. It's for a family with 2 girls, ages 7 and 10. Both competitive figure skaters. I've only done a few weeks with them but love them already and it pays super well so it's been nice to have some extra income. The catering job has been CRAZY lately. Lots and lots of weddings going on, 2 this weekend!!! I've been working long hours but my mom has been a huge help w/ Lex and all in all I love staying super busy =)

We are headed to Orlando next Sat. for a week w/ the Smith family who most of you know is the family I nannied for back in MA for 3 years who now Cami nanny's for, at least for another couple months. We are way excited for that and can't wait to spend time w/ my 2nd family =) The day I get back I'm jetting off to Utah w/ Chelsea to check out UVU and hopefully seeing some friends and family of mine!

Now onto the fun stuff, lol, DATING! After being divorced I knew dating would be different, even difficult maybe but boy did I have absolutely no clue. No one has written a handbook on what to do/what not to do or if they have I haven't found it yet lol. I guess the hardest thing is Alexa. How to really handle her w/ introducing her to people and what not? I mean, it's just a complicated situation! I guess I've started to learn that everyone will handle me having a kid differently and some people think it's awesome and some people are staying far away. Dating sucked back in the day but now it's even worse because I'm not 100% in control of the situation because it's not just me anymore. I'm a package deal =) Someone may like me but that might not be enough, ya know? Honestly, I'm learning a lot and still growing and trying to repair my heart. As much as I'd like to say I'm 100% ok, I'm not sure anyone really is after going through what we've gone through in the past year. I'm very hopeful and have a great life here in Florida with tons to be grateful for. I'm taking life as it comes, the good with the bad, happy with the sad.